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Friday, October 13, 2006

Despondent

Its hurtful
the things he said
the sarcasm....unbearable
he really thinks so lowly of me?
never knew the burden i have on my shoulders
the whole department....they depend on me
my work....the work of my hands.....they feed them
but he will never know
because prepossessed thinking is destroying my dignity
such profound hopelessness, dejection....

I'm not very good at writing....
but when evens happens that triggered my emotions,
i tend to write in this form....
because i need to channel my emotions out,
but i cant tell you the whole story! its too revealing Id feel naked....
So bits n pieces revealed but not the whole picture...
I know my faithful readers can feel me...
they know when i'm happy
they know when i'm sad
thanks for listening...thanks for being there when i have no one to turn to
i know i always have you

Ya it happend....
awhile ago....despondent event that triggered tears...
but I held it back....I have no time to cry
I've got appointment to go to....
crazy me....
being shelled at by the very person that you're working your ass off for.....
such irony in life.....
quickly i pretend to have an eyesore and reached out for my eyedrops...
i squeezed a few drops on each eye...
but in fact i was trying to conceal the teardrops thats squeezing its way out against my will...

thumped my chest and off i go......battle for money....
the very money that i bring in to him
and the very him that treated me like shit

ya....thats life
just gotta take it in.....with a pinch of salt...

6 comments:

Jemima said...

"Whether the stone hits the jar, or the jar hits the stone, it'd bad for the jar," is a paraphrase of an old proverb.
Whether we like it or not, jars get broken in this world we live in.

I totally understand how you feel.
Hold your head up, my dear friend.
Always remember "It's not raining on you; it's just raining."

LOTS OF HUGS for you, FA.

blissful.delirium said...

We all have our ups and downs at work ya.

Take it with a light pinch of salt and move on. No point dwelling on it. Afterall, our lives do not only revolve around work.

Be happy and thankful you have a good hubby to go home to at the end of the day :D

angel said...

Fashionasia darling, maybe it's time to move on? Another job, maybe? It's nearing end of the year... quite a good time to keep a lookout... ;)

*BIG BIG HUGZ*
*hands you a Chuppa Chup*

Mirebella said...

you ok luvvy? hope the weekend managed to lift your spirits up.

ian said...

AAWWWWW... come come... I'll give you a hug. I don't normally do that but I'll make it an exception today...

Rise from the ashes soon, alright?

Fashionasia said...

jemima: your words of encouragement really made me feel better. thanks ! hugs!!

blissful:Thank God for hubby who totally appreciates me in every way possible...i love weekends!

angel: thanks for the chuppa chup...i hear ya....jobstreet here i come

mirebella: not entirely ok....im taking Off today too on monday....cant bring myself to work...and i feel lousy...

ian:wow...a hug from ian the cool man....takes opportunity to hug more!!! *hugggsssssssss* okiedokie...but its gonna be painful to my wallet!! hehe...