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Thursday, December 29, 2005

She didn't come because......

1 of my best of friends did not turn up on my wedding day. I'd be lying if i say that i'm not the least bit disappointed. However i choose not to allow these things let me down. I was cool about it. I didn't ask her why.

During the christmas party I saw her. She looked pale. When she saw me she came over to sit by me. Actually I met her the other day, she told me she was sorry she couldnt make it to my wedding. I just smiled and say its fine. Nothing to worry about. I didn't probe her further the reason why. I didn't want to know. The truth is, inside i was thinking what could be so important that you miss your best friends wedding??

At the party she came over. As usual we would catch-up with each other. Truth is we were best friends when we were "single". But ever since both of us found our partners & eventually got married, we hardly hang out together anymore. So she said sorry once more. I told her its ok, don't worry about it. She must have felt really bad so she explained the reason.
"Fashionasia, I'm so sorry I didn't make it.......I.......I had a miscarriage............"

I.......was........stunt......
.....
I really wasn't prepared for it. I have no idea how to respond to such news. I manage to mumble something ...feeling very concerned, I asked her if she was ok.

She sounds pretty ok about it. But i could sense the pain. When she told me the whole process, she was rather teary. I don't know what or how should I be feeling, but I couldnt help but to feel sorry for her. It was her first baby. It must have hurt real bad. I felt so sorry that I was sort of angry at her for not being there. I felt sorry that i am not there for her. I was told that the whole process was extremely painful. I recall reading about an account by zaras mum about her miscarriage. I feel so sorry.

4 comments:

Dinah said...

That is totally terrible that happened to your friend. I hope that she is doing ok.

missy-j said...

firstly, congrats on your wedding! secondly, my heart goes out to your friend.

best wishes for the new year.

S-Kay said...

You know...if I call my friend a best friend..it means she's the best and if she can't make it, I would understand that there's something definitely serious happening or else she'd turn up at my wedding. She's my best friend after all and there's a reason why two person are best friends.

Whenever my best buddy can't come for my party (important ones), I would automatically understand that she'll definitely feel bad and that she herself won't wanna miss it if it weren't for something more important =) But unfortunately for me, my best friend (whom I have no idea whether she treats me like one anymore) do not have that kinda maturity to understand why some things have to happen and why sometimes, you have to move on to your separate lives but still keep in touch once in awhile and not everyday.

Zara's Mama said...

Congratulations on your wedding.

Am sorry about your friend's miscarriage. I hope she's taking it well.